When Why Leads to Why Not, It Is Time to Act

My angels have been leading me to ask a lot of “why” questions of myself today.  Why do I feel called to be a healer? Why am I writing?  Why am I connecting to angels? Why am I asking why?

These questions started with who questions, including the unanswerable “who am I?”.

I know that I am love and light.  I was created in the image of the Divine, and the Divine is love and light.  I am cool with that.  And I believe we are all love and light, even when we do not know it and even when our actions seem to indicate otherwise.

But this answer doesn’t not help me in my daily life.  “Okay, I am love and light.  Now what?” 

This reminds me of a time that a teacher led a meditation that took us deep down inside.  He said, “your body is only a meatsuit, go into the depths of your being within the meatsuit.”  Some in the class, got so insulted by the term “meatsuit,” they could not go any further with the meditation.  I thought it was a brave way of speaking truth, refreshingly honest even.  I had never heard anyone say that so bluntly. I enthusiastically followed his directions to go deeper and deeper inside myself. 

For a while I was sensing darkness, like a void, it was if there was nothing there and then he said, “go down even deeper, now what do you see?”  I thought to myself, what could be below this void?  How could there be anything below what feels like nothing? But I followed his directions and after a minute or so of inner searching, I felt this awesome sense of love.  I did not want to move.  I wanted to stay there forever.  It was delicious, it was indescribably good, I just wanted to bathe in it for the rest of my life. 

And then the teacher, said, “now slowly bring your attention to the room.”  I really wanted to say, “No way! I am staying here,” but I knew that there was another class coming in after this one, so I could not just sit there. I had to bring my awareness back to the room.

            After the class, I went up to him.  Some of the students were arguing with him about how he dared to call our bodies meatsuits.  I waited until they left, and then I asked, “So, I got down below a sense of nothingness, and then I felt this amazing sense of love, but I could not move.  So, what do I do with this?  How do I live my life?”

            He smiled, and said, “Ah.  Go to that place you found and just live from there.  When you are to move, your body will feel an urge to move.  If not, stay still and be.  It is as simple as that.”

            I wish I could say I started to live every day and every moment from that place.  I did not.  But I still remember it, and when I allow myself, particularly when I connect to my angels, I feel it and I know it to be the truth of my being.

            For now, that is my best answer on the “who” question.  But what about the “why’s”?  I don’t have as clear an answer, but it sure feels right to keep asking.  Occasionally, I get an answer, like “It feels good”, “it seems to shift my client’s energy to a better place”, “it is a way to share this love and light I feel” and “why not?”

            Why not?  That question seemed to pop out of nowhere.  I did not have an answer for it.  I realized if I didn’t have an answer to why not, then it was a sign to keep moving in that direction, even if I had not answered all of the why’s.

            I will continue to ask the who questions because I think they inform me of my essential nature, even if the answers are never complete.  And I will continue to ask the why questions because whatever answers I give help me feel a sense a direction, especially if when I ask why not, I have no answer.

            Which of these questions have more meaning to you?  Do you get more out of asking who you are or why you are or why you do?  And when you have no answer to why not, do you take the leap?

            I would love to hear your thoughts on these questions in the comments below and what question gives you the greatest meaning in your life.  Feel free to email me if you would like to explore them further or would like some help from me and my angel team.     

Many angel blessings,

Lilia Shoshanna Rae

Author of The Art of Listening to Angels

Facebook:  Fb.me/Messengerforangels   

Heaven on Earth – A New Look

As part of a business coaching program recently, I was encouraged to claim my big vision as helping people live heaven on earth.  This is years after being cautioned by other well-meaning advisors that it was too big, too ephemerous, too vague.  I was told by some that it would put off those who felt “heaven” sounded too religious.  Or others said most people would not know what I meant by “heaven on earth”.

Somehow the coach this week caught my vision that I tried to describe in a whole string of descriptors and wordiness even though he says he is not a spiritual guy and only has one reluctant foot in the world of woo because of his colleague and resulting clients in this coaching biz.

He suggested that those who do not understand what I mean are not my ideal clients.  My ideal clients know exactly what I mean by “living heaven on earth”.  Not only that, they know they want my help in doing exactly that.

My ideal clients may have different definitions for “heaven,” but they know what it means to them personally.

So today, I feel energized and focused to begin again on my mission – given to me 20 years ago by my angel team – to bring heaven on earth – to my clients, students, readers, friends, and family – and through them to the world.

I am making a commitment to myself and to all those who understand what I mean when I say “live heaven on earth” - to write about it, talk about it, practice it, and help others practice it.

So now, I am curious.  What does it mean to you to “live heaven on earth”?  Do you want to join me in exploring what this could mean in your life?  Let me know by leaving a comment below.

True Humility and Sharing Our Unique Gifts

This morning I wanted to fall on my knees in deep gratitude and thanksgiving. 

I felt a tenderness.  A sense of preciousness.  I knew that the moment would fall away as all moments do, but I felt called to appreciate it as fully as possible. 

I felt held in this delicate balance between pridefulness and a sense of insignificance, of not being worthy.   It is in that space between the two that I experience true humility - knowing the value of me being me and sharing my unique gifts.  It is an exquisite place in which to reside.

What led me to that state was that I had just shared some channeled messages with a friend.  These messages came through me.  I knew their source - actually, in this case three different sources. It was a felt knowing, a skill I have developed in the last twenty years since angels first came into my life.  It is hard to explain how the knowing occurs, but when Archangel Michael shows up in my life, I can distinguish that energy from the energy of other angels.  When a new Spiritual being shows up, they somehow indicate to me some clue as to their identity.  I can hear a name or feel or see something that gives me an idea.  I feel a bodily sensation of a yes, no, or maybe.  Then I hear or sense a message or inspired idea.  It is a lot easier to do than to explain.

The messages that came through today helped my friend attain a greater sense of peace and clarity.  This is where emotions and feelings around humility came in for me.  I was helping someone very dear to me through using my gifts.  Wow! 

The experience brought tears to my eyes.  Not tears of sadness or joy, but of a deeper emotion, a sense of amazingness, awesomeness, that sense of being a clear vessel or conduit for truth and love to flow through, knowing it was not me, but my allowing for it to be.

On Valentine’s Day I had another experience around this concept of true humility.  On that day I channeled a message for myself.  I wrote about it in a blog called “A Funny Way to Spend Valentine’s Day.”  I shared how I was trying to describe my work to other participants in a conference.  I knew I was to say more than author or Reiki master.  What I heard my angels say was “you are a messenger for the angels.” For some reason it felt huge, maybe even pretentious.  After wrestling with the concept for a while, I chose to accept the description.  As I wrote about this experience in the blog, I said I would accept the role “with true humility – that place between pridefulness and unworthiness - that place where we best share our unique gifts.”

I guess my angels really want me to understand this concept of true humility, since it came up again today.  Yes, it is how we can best share our gifts, open ourselves to divine inspiration, and allow the goodliness of the Divine to flow through us.

My angels tell me that being humble, truly humble, helps us hear and experience their energy and wisdom.  It is a virtue that assists in our personal evolution.  Yet “humility” as a word has such mixed meanings. 

There is the honorable meaning that I know is intended by my angel advisors - the opposite of being arrogant or “haughty”.  Haughty almost sounds like what it means - expressing contempt for people or things perceived to be inferior. 

Yet humility also includes a sense of submissiveness and limited self-worth.  That is a negative connotation - a feeling of being less then – just as being haughty would make others seems inferior, being humble could cause oneself to feel inferior. 

What a mixed bag of messages contained in the word “humility”.

But don’t many spiritual concepts have that quality of the Tao, the holding of opposites in a whole - not just a static whole as the symbol for the Tao might first reflect, but the flow of the opposites in the whole? 

Consider love.  As I evolve in understanding love, I find that my love cannot extend to another unless it begins with love for myself.  Self-love is not selfish in the withholding and constricting way that most of us understand selfishness.  Self-love is the most expansive and gracious way to be in this world because it is in loving our self and appreciating that we are love itself, that we can then radiate that out to others.  We untether our love and set it free by loving our self.  It is a difficult concept to fully appreciate  yet bringing the concept of the Tao to it helps me. 

So back to my experience this morning.  What it taught me is that by my being able to hold my presence in the space of the two opposites, the space between haughty and submissively humble is true humility, through which gifts of the most holy can flow through.  I did not second guess or doubt myself as I allowed the guidance and wisdom to flow through.  I could have said, “not me. I am not skilled enough, talented enough, holy enough to allow these messages to come through.”  Or I could be in true humility and allow, speak, and share the love, wisdom and other blessings flowing through.

My angels asked me to stay with this in the afterglow – after the moment had passed and the messages given, to allow my understanding of what had just happened come into my awareness at a deeper level.  This is what they had been speaking to me about for years.  This is what they had me write about as true humility being a condition that would help people connect more easily, consistently, and confidently with their angels.  They asked me to take it in fully into my body and really feel it.  And then they asked me to write about it in this blog.

I hope this sharing helps you bring your unique gifts through in the space of true humility.  The world needs you in your most awesome humble beingness.

Please leave a comment below about these ideas around true humility and sharing your gifts.